it's a completely dreary day over here. unfortunately i have to work late tonight. got sprung on me yesterday but i didn't have anything else on. had a talk with my boss about the kid i look after. spoke about implementing consequences etc. she was somewhat vaguely receptive to it, but said that she trusted me to use them because i "won't go around with a 3 foot pole". and then later said i could use bribery instead, because "that is like the opposite of a consequence isn't it?" i guess the fact of the matter is that i need to harden up. she spoke a lot about engaging the kid in non-screen related activities. he does this with her, but he is very resistant with me. she told me he gets very attached to nannies, but i don't think he is attached to me whatsoever. he loves his mum and you can see that spending time with his mum is his most prized possession. anyway, it's much harder to cajole a kid into an activity when he doesn't literally love you. anyway, all in all i really just need to harden up. i knew they engaged in negotiation and bribery with him (purely because of the way he interacts with me), but i guess they actively condone it too. kind of thought they might be more on board but i guess not. it's hard to create structure and boundaries for a kid if there are no consequences for breaking them.
aside from my working life there is not much else going on. i have a long list of family that i need to make contact with just to check in. i'm also trying to be more mindful of my eating habits because i have gained weight lately, and i am afraid i will be only gaining more!!!! i really should be exercising. i started going walking last week - i think if i do it enough eventually i'll start running again. but sigh, starting work at midday sort of throws a spanner in the works. it should make it easier, but i so prefer doing life admin tasks in the afternoon. sigh. c'est la vie.